Reflecting on 2009

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=imzkwkgUF4E

2009 has been quite a year...filled with highs and lows. I've experienced some of the greatest joys of my life along with the most painful lows. As we get packed up for Christmas and I hustle to tie up loose ends at work and cook different dishes and wrap gifts I was hit with a thought that brought me to complete stillness. Last year on this very day I was pregnant and didn't even know it yet. I was told that there would be times all throughout this first year when grief would hit me out of the blue...this was one of those times. We have so much joy and anticipation as we approach our due date, but as that date nears we also approach the one year anniversary of our loss. In fact, they are only 7 days apart. As I reflect on the past year and enjoy the squirms and wiggles of our expected baby, I also want to verbalize my love for our first baby. We will be better parents b/c of the way our lives have been changed. We have so much to be thankful for...family and friends who we love very much. I am thankful for the love and support you have given us in 2009.