I have wanted blog for quite some time now, as a means of updating friends and family, but also for self-reflection...I find writing to be so therapeutic! Now is as good a time as any to begin this thing, so here we go!
After arriving home from our Florida vacation last week, Blake and I were so excited to find out that we are expecting again! We are 5 weeks pregnant today and will have our first OB appointment and ultrasound on July 13. I can't wait to see the baby and his or her tiny heart pumping. When you see your child on the ultrasound screen, you can't help but have your breath taken away in amazement. I would be lying if I said that I don't have any fears, but when those thoughts creep up, I just tell myself, "Everything is going to be ok, we will bring our baby home!" I realize now, more than ever that I have so little control over what is happening inside me. Basically, I'm just along for the ride. Blake and I cherish every day that we have during this pregnancy b/c 40 weeks aren't promised. Each passing moment is a miracle and coming to that understanding has made me grow as a person. I am so thankful for the nausea, tiredness, and trips to the bathroom in the middle of the night. (Blake thinks its pretty funny when I exclaim, "I feel like I'm going to puke, this is awesome!")
God has been so faithful to Blake and I. Our relationship has grown as we have walked through the valley together this year. I think that is why I have such a peace about this pregnancy...I know that no matter what happens, God will provide and Blake and I will survive. We are so much stronger as a couple and individuals today than we were a year ago. Romans 5:3-4 says "but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope."
So now we hope and wait and pray for a healthy bundle of joy due March 2, 2010!
So happy to read your good news! I will keep you in my prayers, I think of you often since that night we met 7 or so weeks ago. Continue clinging to The One who is faithful! You are a beautiful reflection of allowing God to work through you during a difficult situation and becoming better and not bitter because of it! Hang in there, friend. Your precious little one is loved so much already :)
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